“I’ve only 58 days left to live”
Texas the Lone Star State!
May 24th, 2011 4:17am
Welcome to my nightmare… tales from a dead man!
“Give yourselves to disciplines instruction; open your ears to tested Knowledge”
Good morning from another day on Texas death watch… I’ve only 58 days left to live if the powers that are have their ways… whichever it is, however it may be I must thank each and every one of you out there that’s fighting to save my life as well as my soul. Never in all my years of living have I seen so many soft hearted and compassionate people… so many wonderful people, so again let me thank you all for doing all you do!
We are on lockdown once again, and the crazy part is we had just been raided by the shakedown team here on death watch Sunday the 22nd of May. And after the team went through their procedures and we were able to get our world back in order and situated, Monday morning rolls around and they say lockdown for shakedown. Lo & behold death watch is the first section hit and this time by a whole new crowd of unknown faces bent on confiscating something, just anything. I’m serious, where do they find all these overzealous people at I often wonder? SO we were searched and had all of our belongings gone through again and even had our then little mattresses ran thru the x-ray machine… what a wonderful way to start out a day.
4:32am breakfast is served. Two small ¾ oz dry cereal boxes… no milk or anything… just dry cereal. What?? No peanut butter goo sandwiches?? Thank GOD for that! I guess with the budget cut they don’t want to use too much bread to feed us… and why should they? Ain’t we all slotted for death anyway?? Yep that’s the attitude of many shallow minded people who work here. But the ones who work back here with us on a day to day basis know the human side of us that we do possess human qualities and even contain compassion and human emotions. Sure there’s the monsters but there’s monsters even walking amongst all of you out there in the land of the free… undetected, covered in regular clothing.
My neighbor has 9 days left to live… and is going thru his final countdown on lockdown. Man what a damn evil place this is. We all are going thru the final countdown with him and with a little hope my friend who is also a Muslim will receive a stay of execution. Yes my neighbor is Muslim and isn’t it funny that the State says I’m such a continued threat to society yet I’m able to live next to this man of Islamic Faith… we laugh… we live… and we care!
Well before I close this out let me say this again, for all of you out there who have stood by my side or someone’s side who is in this type of situation as I am, your efforts do not go unnoticed… your compassion and support is what makes these dark days we face seem sunny and peaceful. Never forget that. Ya know at the start of this year I was so torn as what to do… should I just drop the appeal and stop causing emotion turmoil in my friends and loved ones, and that’s a serious thought that had engulfed a lot of my time but then it hit me like a ton of bricks.
I will quote a piece I’ve read from a book written by a remarkable man who survived the horrors of Nazi concentration camps during WWII, the man’s name is “Viktor E. Frankl” and it is saying it easy to just lay it down and die. To ease one’s own problems and sufferings as he said. “A man who becomes conscious of the responsibility he bears toward a human being who affectionately waits for him, or to an unfinished work, will never be able to throw away his life. He knows the ‘why’ for his existence, and will be able to bear almost any ‘how’”.
Still unbroken and still Red, White & Blue
True American… loud & proud!
Mark Anthony Stroman 2011