“Times are moving so damn fast but in total slow motion”
Texas The Lone Star State!
April 2nd, 2011 8:04am
Welcome to my nightmare… tales from a dead man.
“These things shall pass, and some great morning, we’ll look back and smile at heartaches we have known, so don’t forget, when shadows gather the Lord our God is still upon His thrown”. The great Johnny Cash song Lyrics
Good morning to each and every one of you… friends… enemies…. Curious ones, and who ever reads these words… the day is off to a normal start and the silence on this section is remarkable, but then again we have an execution in a few days and each one of us are deep inside our own heads allowing the thoughts to flow freely. I just took the opportunity to holler a “good morning” to Mr. Foster… better known as Sarge… his date is only a few days away… his second date this year.
I spoke about this man in an earlier blog… this was the man who was eating his final meal when he received his stay of execution… this is also the man I spoke of months before being taken to the county for his 1st execution date and how we all thought when they took him away we’d never see him again… and here it is I’m with him once again and have spent most of my time on death watch laughing and re-living old memories and venturing outside for recreation together to soak up the sun’s rays… if Texas kills this man it’s gonna really affect me… being here on death watch has really brought this closer to home than ever before and it’s hard to explain.
There’s so many people out there who have been doing all they can to help this man and to help bring his family back down here to Texas for the second time and it’s amazing at the level of human compassion that is being offered to everyone who is down this way. Sarge and I had plenty of time to talk about things and how it was for him and how he was treated down there in Huntsville… and that alone has given me the needed strength… and he also made me realize just how much I care and love all my friends and loved ones… I love’em enough not to want to put them through the pain and sadness that is definitely part of a package deal that comes with the execution… to have to put them through this more than once would rip my heart in half…
It’s so surreal down this path… times are moving so damn fast but in total slow motion… whatever may come from this… it comes no matter what and whenever it’s time to go… I’ll be going unbroken and one proud American.