Archive for April, 2011

A stay of execution

Posted in Uncategorized on April 14, 2011 by tamouzmedia3

Death Blog

Texas- The Lone Star State

April 5th, 2011 10:00am

Welcome to my nightmare… tales from a dead man!

“Sometimes man may be required to accept fate, to bear his cross”

It’s execution day in Texas and yesterday was a very long day for all of us on this section. We all stayed up most of the evening while Mr. Foster also known as Sarge was in the recreation cage having his final few hours of recreation… so we all laughed… shared stories and tried our best to give our support to this man who has left very little life if Texas has their way.

Good day to all of you out there and I’ve said this with a clear and open heart. I had tried to get this blog started hours ago but I just couldn’t find the words, with a million things I wanted to say, I just sat at this typewriter and looked at my keyboard lost inside my head. The morning slowly inched along and our section was slowly showered and as we walked by “Sarge’s” cell we could see him packing up his belongings and preparing for his final four hour visit with his loved ones. He still proudly flew his American & Confederate Flags from his cell just as I do… as I walked by, he saluted me and since I’m in handcuffs behind my back all I could do was nod my head, but that’s understood in this place.

So at 8:00am they come and get him for his visit and as he is taken off the section we all know this could be the last time we ever see this man again and everyone shouts the final farewells and to keep his head up… I had a hard time holding back some tears… and I will admit a few did escape from my eyes and I’m not ashamed to admit this in anyway form or fashion.

I now posses two sets of flags, the ones I proudly display and the ones he left me… the emotions are coming and going like clouds in the sky. I sit here and listen to the news… all they can say is that he is such an evil man and has a long record of spousal abuse… but they forget to mention he is a 21 year vet of the United States Army and that he is convicted under the law of parties and has killed no one… his co-defendant who died of cancer has already admitted to this, but in Texas someone has to die for the offense so the wheels of so called justice can remain greased and rolling properly.

10:52am same day… different mood…

We were just told by one of the guards who works our pod that Sarge has just received a stay of execution… and I can just imagine what his family is feeling at this very moment after having to come back to Texas for this a second time… the happiness that must be flowing through his mother and sisters and supporters is surely overwhelming… it has left this whole section of death watch with a feeling that I can’

T put down into words… God answers prayers!


The news just announced the stay of execution was issued not for the use of the new drug but for an issue of ineffective assistance of counsel. So the Supreme Court has once again stood in and prevented this state sanctioned killing from taking place.

True American till death… still unbroken!

Mark Stroman, 2011


“Times are moving so damn fast but in total slow motion”

Posted in Uncategorized on April 12, 2011 by tamouzmedia3

Death Blog

Texas The Lone Star State!

April 2nd, 2011  8:04am

Welcome to my nightmare… tales from a dead man.

“These things shall pass, and some great morning, we’ll look back and smile at heartaches we have known, so don’t forget, when shadows gather the Lord our God is still upon His thrown”.  The great Johnny Cash song Lyrics

Good morning to each and every one of you… friends… enemies…. Curious ones, and who ever reads these words… the day is off to a normal start and the silence on this section is remarkable, but then again we have an execution in a few days and each one of us are deep inside our own heads allowing the thoughts to flow freely. I just took the opportunity to holler a “good morning” to Mr. Foster… better known as Sarge… his date is only a few days away… his second date this year.

I spoke about this man in an earlier blog… this was the man who was eating his final meal when he received his stay of execution… this is also the man I spoke of months before being taken to the county for his 1st execution date and how we all thought when they took him away we’d never see him again… and here it is I’m with him once again and have spent most of my time on death watch laughing and re-living old memories and venturing outside for recreation together to soak up the sun’s rays… if Texas kills this man it’s gonna really affect me… being here on death watch has really brought this closer to home than ever before and it’s hard to explain.

There’s so many people out there who have been doing all they can to help this man and to help bring his family back down here to Texas for the second time and it’s amazing at the level of human compassion that is being offered to everyone who is down this way. Sarge and I had plenty of time to talk about things and how it was for him and how he was treated down there in Huntsville… and that alone has given me the needed strength… and he also made me realize just how much I care and love all my friends and loved ones… I love’em enough not to want to put them through the pain and sadness that is definitely part of a package deal that comes with the execution… to have to put them through this more than once would rip my heart in half…

It’s so surreal down this path… times are moving so damn fast but in total slow motion… whatever may come from this… it comes no matter what and whenever it’s time to go… I’ll be going unbroken and one proud American.

True American

Mark Stroman

“The moving shadows of people pass”

Posted in Uncategorized on April 8, 2011 by tamouzmedia3

Death Blog

Texas United States of America

March 28th, 2011 4:19pm

Welcome to my nightmare… tales from a dead man!

“The one who seeks good finds delight; the student of evil becomes evil.”

Good afternoon, the moods and emotions flower like water in a stream, here we are sitting inside death watch on Texas death row but still have the energy to produce a genuine smile and offer a few kind words to all that we encounter. It’s been just a little over a month since I was brought to this ole’ section and since then I’ve gained a neighbor on both sides of me, and both of these men have dates before me… so that places me in the last spot of execution for the ones we have currently on death watch… there’s seven of us total!

I would like to share a poem a friend sent me… it’s extremely touching and applies to this place and I’m more then sure to many of you out in the land of the living free. It comes from a book published in 1912 by a woman named Ella Wheeler Wilcox (Shut In is the book)

Across my windows glass

The moving shadows of people pass.

Sometimes the shadows pause; and through the hall

Kind neighbors come, or call

Bringing a word or smile

To cheer my loneliness a little while.

But as I hear them talk,

These people who can walk

And go about the great green earth at will,

I wonder if they know the joy of being still

And all alone with thoughts that soar afar

High as the highest star.

And oft I feel more free

Then those who travel over land or sea.

For one who is shut in,

Away from all outer strife and din,

With faithful pain and sorrow for guide

Finds where great truths abide.

Across my window glass

The moving shadows pass,

But swifter moves my unimpeded thought

Speeding from spot to spot out and afar,

High as the highest star.

(Ella Wheeler Wilcox 1912)

Nine more days and we have our next execution and the man set to die is really an inspiration… just to see his strength… to hear him talk or to laugh is a feeling that I could never explain in a million years. Being here on death watch is so different from being anywhere else on the row… here we all are in touch with reality on a much higher level, and I’m sure the next few months will be very trying for us all back here.

Still unbroken, and very much a TRUE AMERICAN


Mark Stroman, 2011