Dead Man Walking
Texas-United States of America!
January 30th, 2011 8:13am
Welcome to my nightmare… tales from a dead man!
“The gullible believe anything they’re told; the prudent sift and weigh every word.”
The day is off to a great start, no voices inside my head and a comfort zone has engulfed me. Good morning to everyone out yonder in the world of freedom, may your day bring you a safe and peaceful comfort zone as well. The day started out well because of a few kind souls who are working our pod, and that makes the world of difference back here.
I still await the death warrant to be sent to this establishment, and once it does I will be officially classified as a dead man walking. But to be honest, most here are already dead and I see them shuffle by my cell with each passing day, dead bodies breathing in a sad place. Speaking of that type of sad soul, a baby killer just walked by my cell on his way to the shower, a look of total blankness in his eyes. I would hate to think of the nightmares that person has at night, or his every waking hour. I’d be insane just knowing that my actions had taken a precious child from this earth.
The last few days ever since I found out about my execution date that is to come, I’ve had so many people around me show acts of human kindness, inmates and guards alike; that alone has left me with a feeling of self-worth, the innermost armament of the soul is exactly that (self respect and self worth). To be deprived of it is to be dehumanized, to be cleaved from, and cast below mankind. I have seen men here (I use the word men lightly too) subjected to dehumanizing treatment experience profound wretchedness and loneliness, and find hope is almost impossible to retain! Without dignity identity is erased! At times I felt as if I was becoming a lesser human being too! But I’m still very unbroken and proud to be a True American.
Till the end of time I will remain true to myself!
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