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More Afraid of living than of Dying

Posted in Uncategorized on December 31, 2010 by tamouzmedia3

Death Blog Texas Death Camp

December 22nd , 2010  2.44 AM

Welcome to my nightmare…Tales from  A Dead man.

Pain  is just a weakness leaving my body”

I sit here on this warm and muggy December morning and I try to clear the clouds from my mind and get the day started.  I often wonder how I have made it this far without going insane, or perhaps I am,  and just don’t know it!  Good morning to each and one of you, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.

Things here have really turned sour.  I don’t know if I ‘m just fed up with this place or if the answers I’ve been looking for make sense and have a logic… what ever it may be I actually feel I am now complete and can be content with all the choices I am faced with. I am more afraid of living than of dying.

Till the end…proud and true…and unbroken!

True American

Mark Stroman

 

 

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Merry Christmas from a small cage.

Posted in Uncategorized on December 16, 2010 by tamouzmedia3

Death Blog

Texas Death Camp

December 9, 2010 2:52am

Welcome to my nightmare… tales from a dead man

What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.

Merry Christmas from a small cage inside Texas Death Row. The ole’ morning has snuck up on me again and it’s always a blessing to have had a few hours of undisturbed sleep… it’s been so cold in these concrete tombs that I had to sleep beneath the blanket and I’ve noticed that has another positive to it beside staying warm, it also keeps the beam of light from the security guards from disturbing ones sleep. That’s one reason I slept so well last night, so at the moment it’s all about the coffee, a few good tunes on the radio and hope of a good day.

Yesterday was a nightmare, at about 7am a crew of security guards came to our section (which holds 14 of us) and told us to get ready to be moved for a few hours to empty cells so the welding crew can weld iron plates over our “co-ax cable box and electrical outlet”… (one wall is made of stainless steel) so we move the belongings beneath our bunks and stuff our shelves full so the gust and welding shavings don’t get all over our possessions. When we returned to our cells it was unbelievable… dust, metal shavings and dirt was on everything… it took me all day to scrub the walls, floors and I had to use my bath rowel… metal shavings are now embedded into my feet. What a nightmare. I know this sounds a bit petty but just imagine a crew of welders coming into your home with grinders and welders and when they’re done you return to see the aftermath of destruction you must clean… and the only thing you have is your towel you must shower with. No brooms are allowed to us, no mops… NOTHING!

It amazes me, all these so called “book smart” people who run this place are so damn sidewalk stupid…

Merry Christmas To All

True American

Mark Stroman

Holiday Season 2010

Posted in Uncategorized on December 9, 2010 by tamouzmedia3

December 3rd, 2010 3:11am

Welcome to my nightmare… tales from a dead man!

“Proud, True and Grateful… Till Death Comes”

Well good morning to friends, loved ones and enemies alike… it’s a new day and I’m doing this damn thing one step at a time and won’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow, yesterday is no more ~ tomorrow may not arrive so the big focus of the day is today and how to squeeze as much of life out of it as possible… I will make the best out of a bad situation!

I sit here in this small cage and am absolutely amazed at how fast the time flies… a normal person on the outside would assume time in these cages would move slow, but I can assure you that’s not true, I do find myself so mentally drained at the end of each day that it’s hard to complete the days set tasks… where has 2010 gone too?

I wanted to touchdown on how the Thanksgiving Day went for me and I thank everyone who sent in such positive thoughts and greetings and for everyone world wide who continues to give me the needed strength to face one of these death row days in Texas, THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU! People like you make the world a beautiful place…

My Thanksgiving came a few days early, on November 20th a dear and trusted friend (who I might add had her husband put to death byTexas in 2008 and she still finds the strength to walk in here to add a smile to my face) came and we had a 2 hour visit of laughs and conversation and the big surprise for me was the machines were stocked with fresh bowls of salad and tons of other things. And my friend simply said Happy Thanksgiving… absolutely remarkable!

Then on November 25th, 2010 Thanksgiving arrives once again for all of death row and Polunsky. The day was a blessed one and not one person could complain the way things were done. The meal was plenty and cooked well, Turkey, ham, pork chops and all the fixings, pies, cakes and that is how the day went for us. I’m grateful for all involved and for the effort put forth.

Before I close this out, I wanted to say a few words to whomever “Gorpit” is. You left a message on the November 13th blog, and I don’t think I could top anything my friend Annette has said to you. Smile. But I will say this… Merry Christmas to you…

And to everyone!

True American Till Death

Mark Stroman