Archive for March, 2010

Stay of Execution

Posted in Uncategorized on March 31, 2010 by tamouzmedia3

Death Blog

Texas Death Row

March 24th, 2010 5:40pm

Welcome to my nightmare… tales from a dead man!

We are 20 minutes away from another State sanctioned murder, and the mood of this place is strange as ever. Hello Planet Earth, it’s another day in the belly of the beast. I sit here and am in total shock. Here it is we are about to have another condemned soul put to death in Huntsville Texas and the talk of the Pod is about the food tray that was just served. Men are outraged that the last meal of the day is a semi -breakfast meal with no meats or eggs. Two hard biscuits and jelly, a spoonful of oatmeal, 3 peaches and pork and beans, and I don’t mean pork, it’s the name of the actual beans. It’s amazing to me, no one seems to care of notice that a soul is about to be released from his earthly body in mere minutes…

CRAZY Indeed!

I sat upon my top shelf today and watched all the State Officials gather outside the visitation room awaiting the next customer of the executioner to be taken to the death van. I counted 18 State officials in the crowd and the mood was a happy one, laughing and back slaps. The good ole’ boy crowd all fascinated with the events. Why else would 18 people gather about? I know for a fact that 98% of the staff here despised the condemned soul set to die, I wonder how many were present just to smile or get the last word. Yep, a strange day indeed. Only minutes away from 6pm now…

6:47pm, the guards just said that Hank Skinner is back and has received a stay of execution. That’s twice now he has cheated death and this time he was closer then ever. I wonder how he feels after going through what he has today? I know his wife and loved ones are in a complete mood of celebration. The executioner has been put on hold, but not for long. We have another soul set to die on the 30th of this month of March.

Death

It awaits us all.

True American Till Death

Red, White & Blue

Mark Stroman, 2010

Living to Die, Dying to Live

Sunrise on Death Row

Posted in Uncategorized on March 27, 2010 by tamouzmedia3

Death Blog

Texas Death Row

March 19th, 2010 3:49am

Welcome to my nightmare… tales from a dad man!

Thank ya Jesus for allowing this ole’ Texas Rebel Redneck one more day of life, for no matter where it is I awake or lay my head, I know for a fact that this nightmare is only but a path to a true blessing and I will continue to “walk it proud” and “talk it loud”. The American way and when I do get to that final destination that cross’s me over into the next phase of existence, the learning process of life would have been completed with each day I absorb more knowledge and that shallow minded fool I once was is slowly fading away. Who would have thought that the trail of blood and tears would have opened my eyes so wide? Life is Beautiful!

Yesterday morning I sat in the ole’ cell of doom and gloom and was not sure what to do, workout, write, read a book, read the newspaper or just look at all my photo albums. So I did the unexpected, I got up on a stack of legal work and books and watched the Texas Sunrise. And what a cool sight that was. Absolute Beauty! I was left speechless and as I sat there with my headphones on listening to some great music and a million miles away from this hellish place when this small bird lands on my window sill. I was like a small kid, instantly I’m all smiles and inches away from this tiny bird who just stood there and looked at me. So there I stood, on Texas Death Row and looking at an awesome sunrise a cute little bird and I then knew for a fact I was the happiest soul alive. Nobody will ever break me. I stand tall and proud. How about you?

So moving on to another subject, yesterday a condemned rapist was in our recreation cage, so I’m in my own zone minding my own bizness, enjoying my day when all the sudden the news reports a case that’s just been denied. And it’s this guy who’s in our sections rec cage walking in circles. And I’m not the only one who was listening to the radio because at that same moment several people told this person the bad news. The condemned soul stopped walkway and just sat down, with a look of defeat upon his face.

WHEW

How about that folks?

True American Till Death

Red, White and Blue

Mark Anthony Stroman

Living to die, Dying to live!

March 11, 4 am reflections

Posted in Uncategorized on March 15, 2010 by tamouzmedia3

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Texas Death Row

March 11th, 2010 4:00am

Welcome to my nightmare, tales from a dead man!

The smell of fresh coffee is in the air, but it does not cover up the stench of death. Today is execution day and as I sit here and listen to my radio enjoying my coffee and morning time I can’t help but wonder what this condemned soul is doing on his final morning. How does one face this? Is he praying to God? Is he writing final goodbye letters or perhaps hate mail? Or is he pacing his floor like a wounded animal ready to strike at anything and everything? Perhaps he is perched up on his bunk looking out the window, thinking of past failures and regrets. No one really knows what goes through the human mind at a time like this!

I heard someone in our rec cage just yesterday saying that life is a wounding, an accumulation of pains and maiming’s and grief. We heal as we can, bear them as we must until the weight grows too much to bear and we go down into the earth. I sat and thought of what this young kid said and it shocked me. There was nothing about love or happiness in his little sermon, I for one have had a lot of negativity in my life, but the happiness and love and good times outweigh anything else. I guess I’m one of the fortunate ones back here in the doom and gloom halls of Texas Death Row. The place one sits and awaits his fate. Death, execution, justice, hate, sadness and on and on and on…

WHEW!

True American Till Death

Mark Stroman, 2010

We Are All In It Together

Posted in Uncategorized on March 13, 2010 by tamouzmedia3

Death Blog

Texas Death Row

March 10th, 2010  3:30am

Welcome to my nightmare, tales from a dead man!

It’s a new day, I believe I could be in a good mood, hell I think I’m happy! No voices, no screams.

I’m not sure I like this!

I’ve been unraveling, unsure and undetermined but this morning I’m just a man who feels as if he’s on top of the world and from where I sit and write this, that’s saying a mouthful! How about that folks! Can you honestly say that’s how you felt this morning when you woke up? In the land of freedom? I have a lot to be grateful for and that’s why I am feeling it this new day. This day is new and I’m alive. So let me thank the heavens above for all of life’s blessings! I also want to thank my Little Cajun Queen, Dani who believes in me no matter what I do! I also want to thank all my friends and loved ones who stand by my side because it’s people like you that enable me to get up and do the happy Redneck Shuffle each day. Hell I even thank all you enemies out there who hate on me and this site. You give me a purpose in life!

Kewl HUH!!!

If you all look around at this world WE all live in you will see that we are all in deep trouble. Wars, terrorism, earthquakes, etc… etc… no matter if your anti-death or pro-death, if your black, white, green or purple or Jewish, Muslim or Christian, we are ALL part of this planet and it’s falling apart while we fight and point fingers.

Sad but true!

True American Till Death

Mark Stroman, 2010

Living to Die, Dying to Live

“STATE HOLIDAY”

Posted in Uncategorized on March 7, 2010 by tamouzmedia3

Death Blog

Texas Death Row

March 4th, 2010  4:00am

Welcome to my nightmare, tales from a dead man!

The day is fresh, the morning crisp and I just had two smiley faced guards deliver the morning meal and I was somewhat confused at first, like I had a moment of “Déjà Vu” because last night these same two guards fed the evening meal, which is exactly the same thing they just gave me again. Pancakes and grits last night and pancakes and grits now. But they say they’re freshly made. All 3 pancakes are stuck together and the grits can be picked up like a bar of soap. Good morning Death Row! What a great day to be alive.

Anyone want some grits?

Now as y’all know Texas executed a condemned soul on March 2nd, 2010 and even though the actual day was a “State Holiday” and all State offices were to be closed in observance of Texas Independence Day the Execution Chamber in Huntsville was open for business and just as hungry as ever. How crazy is that!

True American Till Death

Red, White & Blue

Mark Anthony Stroman, 2010

Living to Die

Dying to live

New Victims

Posted in Uncategorized on March 6, 2010 by tamouzmedia3

Death Blog

Texas Death Row

March 1st 2010  6:30am

Welcome to my nightmare, tales from a dead man!

As we all step into the new month of March Texas has plans to march four souls into the death chamber in Huntsville Texas. This month and the next few after are going to be extremely busy for the Executioner. As a lot of you know, I have strong beliefs and despise child molesters and rapists of our lands, and have that “Old West” justice attitude even though I’m on death row myself. But that is not what I’m about to go into. What I do want to talk about is how the death machine, the vicious cycle of what is called Justice for some, murder for others, only causes more victims.

Let me explain, this past Saturday night I was at a visit and several of the doomed souls set to die this month had visitors as well and as I sat and waited for my friend to arrive, I suddenly realized that I’m in between two separate families visiting their loved ones. On each side of me the person has a date for March and will be gone in a few days time. Executed by the State. As I sit there I can’t help but hear the condemned souls words and see their loved ones. I saw small children in tears, crying and sad. A look of confusion on their little faces. I also see the adults with tears rolling down their faces. Doing their best to hold it together but the tears still fell. A million thoughts raced through my mind, this vicious cycle of American Justice is causing more victims. No matter what you or I think about the condemned, no matter what horrible act they committed, the fact is it’s causing more innocent people to become victims, those small kids crying are etched into my mind forever now.

WHEW!

We live in a mean ole world. We will execute to show that killing is wrong, and then shout Justice was served but how do we as a Society explain that to them little kids I saw in tears Saturday night, they have become victims. There’s definitely something wrong here and it leaves my mind in turmoil.

True American Till Death

Red, White & Blue

Mark Anthony Stroman, 2010

Living to Die

Dying to Live!