Archive for February, 2010

Blissful sleep !

Posted in Uncategorized on February 26, 2010 by tamouzmedia3

Death Blog

Texas Death Camp

February 22nd, 2010  12:01am

Welcome to my nightmare, tales from a dead man

Good morning. I’ve just recently returned from a 10 hour sleep and my mind and body feel so refreshed! This type of luxury, un-disturbed sleep does not happen too much on Texas Death Row. And I know there’s a lot of folks out there in the land of freedom that assume we on the inside could just sleep all we want, well only if you are one of the medicated zombies they have in here would sleep come so freely as if blinking of the eyes. We are in a concrete tomb which echoes all sounds and makes the normal sounding conversation sound as if it’s being yelled out. Then of course you have the steel gates and iron doors being opened and shut. Sometimes even slammed hard enough to rattle one’s teeth. So when I laid down at 12 noon on Sunday and woke up at 10pm. I was at a loss for words, then did the happy dance, the rebel yell indeed because I have done something Texas Death Row officials don’t want us to do, have normal sleep that leaves the mind and body refreshed.

Well now let me tell you the latest rumor I’ve heard, we had an execution set for the 24th of February, Hank Skinner is the name, but I have heard from the grapevine of prisoner to prisoner talk that he has received a 30 day stay, not sure if that’s true or not, but if it is, that’s great for his legal plight and legal team. There does look like the prosecution in his case has dirty hands and are about to be exposed at foul play. Only time will tell.

I’ve said this several times, to be on death watch is a real torture I’m sure. To be on that final countdown, scratching days off your calendar or within your head has to be overwhelming.  But to have a 30 day stay added on is something I wouldn’t want. I hear a lot of people trying to sound all rough and tough when they talk about death and dying and their execution, and I have to smile and laugh. No matter how men or how hardened one thinks he is we as humans, even monsters, and pedophiles have that self preservation switch on the inside that automatically is turned on during trying times.

True American

Red, White and Blue

Till Death

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2.59AM in cell on Death Row

Posted in Uncategorized on February 25, 2010 by tamouzmedia3

Death Blog

Texas Death Row

February 18th, 2010  2:59am

Welcome to my nightmare, Tales from a Dead Man!

I start the day off by trying to get the voices from inside my head on a positive note, pointed in the other direction so I can find my happy place, one of my favorite times, warm and cozy and safe, morning time. I pity anyone who is not a morning person. It’s truly one of life’s pleasures if I’m still able to find peace in it from where I sit, then just imagine what you could do to make yours a magical event. I can still close my eyes and feel the coolness of the mornings when I would go outside and enjoy my first cup of coffee on the front porch, listening for the silence to be shattered by a small chirping cricket. Or the morning paper to be tossed into my yard by a smiling face of a kid on his bike doing his paper route. Ah, the memories are still so fresh. I refuse to let this place or my death sentence take what little humanity I still hold onto.

I’ve done my morning rituals, washed the face, brushing of teeth and a short prayer and a few moments looking at the photos of my loved ones I have out on display. Past and present loved ones. It gives me a true sense of happiness to do this now because I realize I have had a blessed life and still have a blessed existence. Yes I sit here on the busiest death row in America but when I weigh out the bad times, compare them to my good times, it’s amazing how grateful it makes me feel. What’s sad though I also realize I’ve caused some pain in many lives after September 11th, 2001. That’s very hard and on my conscience more than ever. Those are the voices I hear. Sad but true!

Well that’s all I have to say for today. More to follow

True American Till Death

Dying to live, Living to Die

Mark Stroman

Texas Death Row

Death Blog

Posted in Uncategorized on February 24, 2010 by tamouzmedia3

Texas Death Row

February 12th, 2010  6:05pm

Welcome to my nightmare, Tales from a Dead Man!

As I sit here with my mind in turmoil I try to shake the polka dot giraffes from out of my head and put this pen to paper. It’s been many days since I’ve been able to function or have any positive thoughts, I have things inside me that scream and shout and their hard to send away. But this is a start I guess.

I’ve been pacing my floor this evening, doing my own kind of time inside my own head. Radio on, head phones, classic rock playing which is now 80’s & 90’s music, and I suddenly look out my cage door into the recreation cage that’s centered in the middle of our 14 cell section and I see this young black kid walking in circles. He’s maybe 25 years old and out of Tyler Texas. He looks like any youngster and you’d never in a million years guess what he has done if he stood next to you at the checkout line at your local store. This person raped and killed a 93 year old lady. It still chocks me. WHEW! Frail little old lady.

I see the human faces and see a level of evil most can’t even comprehend. Harboring thoughts and memories of a kind you never want to guess at. Please Lord, let me wake up from this nightmare.

True American Till Death

Red, White & Blue

Mark Stroman

Texas Death Row

Lockdown!

Posted in Uncategorized on February 4, 2010 by tamouzmedia3

Texas Death Row

February 1, 2010 1:58pm

Welcome to my nightmare… tales from a dead man.

Well hells bells, never a dull moment here at the death camp of Polunsky. It’s a new day and I’m disgustingly cheerful this morning. It don’t cost to dream, not a dime and I had about 10 hours of undisturbed sleep and the dreams were absolutely wonderful, to many to speak of. It was indeed a blessed night of peace for me.

Now let me get into the events of this crazy and evil place of death and gloom. We are on a lockdown and have been since Saturday morning, we started out the day or should I say the early AM hours on lockdown due to an attempted escape at the Polunsky Unit. Yes you hear right, never a dull moment. 5 inmates from Population tried to take flight in the night and were almost to freedom but the night guards on patrol foiled their plans and opened fire on them. Yes gunfire and 3 inmates shot from what I’ve been told two are in bad shape after being hit with a shotgun blast. We are lockdown and will probably remain that way until the heads of State can figure out what’s what and who is to blame. Surely the blame must go to whomever is in charge of the Kitchen. Them pancakes will make men take flight every time.

Smile

WHEW!

True American till Death

Mark Stroman 2010

Just another day on Death Row

Posted in Uncategorized on February 1, 2010 by tamouzmedia3

Death Blog

Texas Death Row

January 27th, 2010 3:07am

Welcome to my nightmare, tales from a dead man!

I’ve taken into my lungs another breath of hell. A new day is upon us. It could trigger the demons inside my head which have been laying dormant for a while. I’m unraveling. Good Morning Texas Death Row. What a great day to be alive.

Yesterday turned out to be really rotten and two people on the section over had the worse end of it. About 11am the riot squad was called in to extract a man from his cage. Rank arrives, attempts to resolve the issue, and then uses chemical agents. Four long bursts over a few minutes time. Our air is turned off on the pod, the pod officers are coughing and puking up their insides, just like the rest of us. The 5 man team with gas masks, shield and helmets are ordered in. They take down this gassed soul, wrestle him to the ground. The pod is in chaos.

The air is still hard to take in 20 minutes after the 1st major use of force so we all sit in our cells with towels over our faces then it starts up again. Another condemned soul, who refuses to come out of his cell, this guy is a child molester and not well liked by guards or inmates. The 5 man team is at his cell, gassed up and ready to go. The gas is applied the team runs in, now the pod is back in a state of chaos and the air is hard to take in. Eyes burning, nose running, sneezing, coughing. Oh what fun!

So onto a new subject, as the day inches forward, the air is better but the tempers are hot. I’m kicked backed, reading a magazine, in my own world, one of my favorite time and places, warm, cozy and safe, when all of the sudden the crazy nut a few cells down who has been on death row since 1980, yes 30 years, Cedar Fierro starts banging on his metal table and won’t stop! It sounds like a huge gong, all day and all night the medicated crazed person has yelled and screamed, it’s hard to focus!

True American Till Death

Red White & Blue

Mark Stroman, 2010

Living to die, dying to live